I’m slowly working on the fifth installment of my Raw Beats series, but have recently not been finding any inspiration to create music outside of that. I’m feeling like the time when I was inspired by music is gone. I used to find inspiration in other musicians around me and musicians that I wanted to work with. I don’t get that feeling anymore with music.
I’m not saying that I don’t love making music anymore. I’ll never fall out of love with making music. But music has changed, and I don’t think I changed with it. And I’m happy I didn’t change with it from a creativity standpoint. I don’t hear or see anyone or anything that makes me happy and excited anymore; and I mean that as in today’s music(ians).
I can’t 100% say that nothing is good, because I find new dope music on YouTube Music everyday, and a lot of that is inspiring. Maybe this is a “I just need to find a place to find musicians”, but no one that I come across has “that thing” that I used to see in people and that I also had in myself 15-20 years ago and earlier. I don’t know how to explain “that thing”; it’s just something that I do see or feel in people.
I do know that part of it is me being old and stuck in my time. I find people who tell me “I can rap”, “I got bars”, etc., and when I hear what they’re doing, they’re not bad, but they’re just not what I would consider it. And I know that’s juts me being stuck in 2010 (the last time I found someone that was really dope). I also haven’t come across someone who sings in years. Rap seems to be the thing that everyone wants to do.
I used to get excited to bring someone to the house to record and become fulfilled recording them and later sitting up at night mixing their music. With my most recent recording session a week ago (my first since 2013; had a 5 year life hiatus in there), I didn’t get that. The mixing of the music felt good because I enjoy mixing audio, but I wasn’t excited about the music. I’m trying to find that again. And the only thing that has been bring that joy is “rebuilding” my production studio. But as fun as that is, it’s not filling the void of creating music with others.
I think I might have to set some money and time aside and try to fly my cousin and an old vocalist friend out here for a week or two and just work because I don’t think I’m going to find new musicians that get me excited; vocalists at least.
Just a little rant while I try to figure out this music stuff.